I lead a senior high bible study at my church, and we are going through a book called Do Hard Things: A Teenage Rebellion Against Low Expectations by Alex and Brett Harris. Its a great book... one that totally makes you think about what you are supposed to be doing... and it speaks to me. Today I was trying to finish the book up when I read something that hit me...
"We all want to do big and important things, but we tend to discount the equally important small things that get us there."
I know that I'm meant for something bigger... that my ambitions to be a singer, a mom, a wife, isn't just background noise. God has all that and more planned for me but in the long run, I need to be more worried about the "small" things: like cleaning my room, reading my Bible, keeping myself healthy, sharing the gospel... and last but not least, being a star to the darkness. I have a hard time realizing that cleaning my room is important to my future. But it is... My mom tells me to clean my room, I begrudingly do but not well, and then my mom gets mad at me and we have a screaming match, so in the end, my relationship with my mother is spoiled by a seemingless "small" task. Its fruesterating because I'm 21 and still living at home. I want so badly to be on my own, live my own life. I work with kids my age and younger who are getting drunk, having sex, getting high, and thats expected for these kids... Let me tell you a story...
It was probably a month ago when this happened. I was having one of those days where I couldn't understand why I was different from the rest and my life wasn't being blessed, so I hung out with one of my friends. She and I drove around for a while and when we finally stopped, we proceeded to get high... wow... it was HORRIBLE!!! It tasted so nasty! I was tripping so bad, my whole body was shaking and twitching and I was so paranoid, it was just bad. I will NEVER NEVER ever do that again. The worse thing was that my friends from work found out and told me that they where disappointed in me. UGH!!! Disappointment! Epic fail on my part.
Galations 6:7 "Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap"
Every action we do... even if we think its small and insignificant is shaping our future. Remember when I told you I was 21? Well, here's a shocker... I've never drank before... Not because I have a problem with alcohol, but because I don't really have a lot of friends who go out of who are old enough to go out. But here's the kicker... my friends that I've been hanging out with lately want to get together and drink. Some of them aren't 21 and I've been really convicted about that. I don't think that drinking is wrong, just getting drunk like the Bible says, but I do have a problem with underage drinking. I mean, if the law tells you that you can't drink until 21... we should follow that!!! But thats what makes me different... I guess... But here's my dilema... Should I buy the alcohol? Everything within me says "No" but I don't want to lose them as friends... ugh... but its decisions like this that shape my future... stupid, meaningless decisions that barely affect me. Its Hard!!!
I hope that my ramblings aren't boring you... just thoughts...
I'll see you on the flip side,
<3 LissieAnn <3
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Here's something I heard once that made me think:
We (as Christians) are supposed to be Thermosdats rather than Thermometers. Thermosdats control the temperature (meaning, we are supposed to control the situation with our Christ-like influence) rather than the situation controlling us (like a thermometer being controlled by hot or cold conditions.)
I think I spelt theremometer and thermosdat rong.
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