burned out

It hasn't been the best week for me. I've been trying to get over this cold that I've had for three weeks now and I've been super busy.

Middle school youth group is taking it out of me. They are so frustrating! They don't listen, They talk back, and they are super disrespectful. Last night I just ended my talk with me walking away! I can't do it! It must be me because if Debra or Chris talk, they listen, but when I talk, they talk to their neighbors or they talk back to me. Its not really fair. I love these kids and I want to teach them something about God but they don't want to hear it. Now, there are definitely some kids who do want to and who respect me and its those kids who I'm staying for. This youth group is my Home... No matter what they do, they can't make me love them any less. It might sound silly but in all seriousness, if I left them, I would be only screwing with their minds and I would be leaving them at their most vulnerable time. I can't do that to those kids, even if they make me cry.

I guess the best part of this week so far is that I recorded a three track EP. I'm so excited about it... And we are going on a retreat on friday! I'm really praying that God speaks to these kids and to me this weekend!

Welp. Ill see you on the flipside!