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Ok... So a lot has happened since I last blogged. Major crap... My sister left home and started terrible rumors about my family. She's back now. My car has gotten worse. I fixed it. My love life is still as stagnant as before. There was a guy but not anymore. And the guy I like now doesn't seem to get it. Ugh, I put myself through this all the time. I like a guy, he and I start a friendship, I then start reading into the tiniest things and then when he shows up with another girl, my heart breaks. Its hopeless for me. I don't understand this want and need to be in a relationship when I know its not going to happen. Why can't guys see me for who I am and not for what I look like? Is there a guy out there for me? If God knows my inner most desires, then he knows my desire to be a mom and a wife and it will happen... Right? I don't know. I'm tired, ill blog more later.